@DOTAILS As I sit on weekends gaming with my online friends I'm struck by the realization that... I don't really know these people. I feel like my purpose using your practical health model and the Christian perspective that I am leaning more towards some of my purpose; I find that I feel healthier around real people. What do you think?

@DOTAILS I suppose that's true. But I wonder like Luke Skywalker does, about what's beyond the horizon here in Ponca. I step outside my door and see the proverbial two suns setting and ask myself: "Is there more to life? When do I get to go and join the fight? When do I get to start my own adventure? I feel like I'm missing something. Sean and I were talking about this the other day and we both feel like our lives, nay, our futures lie in New Jersey. Meeting my dream girl was almost too surreal for me, and you know I struggle with social interaction. I feel the need to return and convince her of my love and our purpose together. When we play DnD together I feel like we're complete, and here, I don't feel complete. Am I crazy? Am I wrong? I see how much you've done with this website and I can't help but feel like I'm capable of so much too. Your self taught coding and drafting is amazing. I wish I could be as creative as that. I feel like the AI you're showing me is also pretty solid but I feel like I could do it better if I had time or the motivation to do so.

@DOTAILS My recent trip taught me that chasing love was risky. We all spend time together on the weekends gaming and hanging out in a voice chat, but I still feel like there's a chance for love. My brothers and family judge me so much that I often wonder if bringing my hopes to them is useless. My brother worked at my job briefly and that was a chance for us to bond but it's never really sealed the deal that he supports my love interests. My cousin wants to work at my job too, but I don't think he supports the woman I love either. Am I crazy? Should I give up on love? Should I deep dive into my fantasy world when the real one rejects me so? I really don't think I can find my purpose without love.

I don't know if I have a purpose. I feel like aside from my video games where I get to escape to a reality filled with unity (bunny boys and cat girls are just a bonus) that we won't see it in this world. I often sometimes feel alone because I have few friends in the real world, and most are online. Even trips to meet some of them have proven that love is not possible. Even for me.

@DOTAILS I couldn't agree more. Well said!

I love my iPhone and I'm very happy with it's ease of use. I think this post is unnecessarily aggressive towards Apple products.

Inspiring!